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I Guess This Is It.

 So, I'm moving. after about a year of inactivity, I'm moving to another blog. I don't know if anyone's left here, but this is for maybe the one person who might read it. I want to be emotional but I'm honestly just glad to be rid of Blogger. Never worked. Still doesn't. I outgrew this space. But this small corner of the internet will have a somewhat special place in my heart. Thanks to this. Thanks to anyone who's here.  My new home is https://polaroidsnpapercuts.wixsite.com/blog See you there.

Just Thoughts, Revisited.

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I did this three years ago, but I'd hope that my thought processes have evolved since then. So I'm trying this again. This is a place for stuff that floats around in my head but I can't make full posts out of them. We won't talk about the You-Know-What, because today I saw that the sky looked pretty and had a breakdown, so clearly I can't take this somber mood anymore. My denial will continue to be my shield. Here it is... Just Thoughts again. I've been watching a lot of K-Pop recently, due to a general lack of a life, and that industry has some of the most talented humans I've come across. They're the kind of human that you look at and your heart hurts from appreciation, you know? They (especially Ten from NCT) led me to contemplate excellence. The pursuit of excellence is a holy quest, but a foolhardy one. Why would you work that hard? To leave a mark, I guess? But human excellence isn't as simple as that. We want to paint Da Vincis but I can...

On Influencers: How Much Of It Do They Have?

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Yes, I know. It's been a while. And instead of greeting you guys with yet another indecipherable allegorical mess, I bring something that is potent in it's relevancy and unprecedented in it's ignored-ness. (yes i just made up that word) (yes this is my blog I do what I want) So, influencers. *cue a deep seated sigh of confusion from every human being out of adolescence* In case you've been living in Plato's cave with your WiFi unplugged, here's a little crash course: Those people on the internet that dominate social media with their presence and have followers for seemingly no conceivable reason except that.... sometimes they look good? I'm kidding im really not,  some of them do have talents (usually in the field of make up but we'll get into that later). To help you place this formless noun a little better - some include James Charles, Brent Rivera, Emma Chamberlain, all of the Kardashians and Jenners and on and on and on. As for the actual in...

*Escapism Escalates*

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Up to a while ago, I used to have the privilege of plugging in my earphones and kinda blocking out everything in my life that went wrong when it did. for reasons we won't discuss  I don't have that anymore. Whenever I have an actual problem, it turns out I'd rather rip my hair out than deal with it without almost going deaf. I'd rather close myself off to reality than dealing with these emotions ('coz we know that those are a wild ride). It's easier than feeling. It's definitely easier than letting all of the neurotransmitters in my head go bonkers while I sit here not knowing how to deal with it. It's easier to analyse the Herondale family going back seven generations even though they don't exist. Ya........... That's escapism. An d weirdly, up until this second, I didn't even realize it was an issue I had. The dictionary definition is " the tendency to seek distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, especially b...

The Pain of Creating.

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Art hurts. I wish there was a better way I could put it, but quite honestly, it hurts.  It tears your heart out and makes you listen to every terrible voice inside your head that says, not good enough. It forces you to judge, cut, alter and shape into the perfect fit when you don't even know what the mold looks like.  It hurts because it makes you feel. There is no art without emotion, and these emotions are more often than not so strong that you can't control them. All you can do, is let them flow like a torrent from a dam; and hope that they don't leave you drowned. You can hope that they let you stay afloat, but that hope is nowhere near foolproof. Art hurts because it doesn't let you rest. It's 3 am thoughts that jerk you awake and the reason you can't write that school essay. It's the fire that burns within; scorching everything else. Need to write, in my case. It doesn't let you breath because it claws its way to the top of your pri...

Urban Freedom

The theme of a wandering soul lost in the concrete jungle, stumbling and staggering, is one well documented. But what when that wandering soul finds the peace within the madness? What when they spot the light streaming through the alabaster branches of skyscrapers? What when they see a little daisy bloom in the midst of metal and glass? When night falls like a cloak of blackness, and if you're high enough, you can see the fireflies. Not ones that fly, but nevertheless ones that blink out when dawn approaches. They're all the hues and shades - easily mistaken for light pollution. And then you look closer, and all you see is their unique beauty too. Roars and snarls of the traffic. Whimpers of horns. The mumble of an endless mass of public. And in some little pockets of solitude - if you listen close - you can hear the trill of nature too. At night, the crickets still chirp. At dawn, the birds still sing. Sometimes you feel suffocated, and everything closes in, setting ...

League of Learners.

In the advent of exams, I was prompted to visit CrashCourse; which is this YouTube channel that I swear by. A couple of binges later, I surfaced at a corner of the YouTube black hole where a Ted Talk by John Green on the nature of learning caught my eye.  (You can watch it here if you want)  He talks about learning and why it appeals to him, among other things. One of the things he emphasizes upon is the importance of being in a community of learners. To clarify, he says that being in a place or community that values learning, or values curiosity, is paramount. Why so? I like to think that the average human mindset is somewhat akin to a moth. We go where the light is on, where the collective of society and majority shine a flashlight. Where everyone looks. This is where the community of learners comes into play. You see this collective, that's working as a hive mind to shine a flashlight upon knowledge - it doesn't matter what sort - and you fly straight to it. It's ha...